not a typical friday

so busy with work
done more than what i usually do on a busy day
can't blame anyone
not a time management issue
or should i say blame myself for these?
thinking about what yoj said earlier
am i really just keeping myself busy to avoid thinking about anything else?
to avoid caring about anything else?
am i really shutting out the world?
the thing is i don't know
i'm not even aware that i'm busy
i'm not aware that i've been in front of my computer for hours
i didn't notice that i missed my first break and lunch until yoj and divine called my attention
iyc asked me if i have a problem 'coz i'm not talking to anyone
sitting in front of my computer with earphones on and face saying "BACK OFF!"
honestly, i didn't know that i already gave them that impression

still, i'm not doing anything about it
i'm here in front of my computer
typing like mad
still with earphones on listening to my fave Bonnie Bailey's Ever After over and over again
pretending be working on a case
just not to be disturbed by anyone

what is my problem?

i don't know!

i've always been on the cheerful side
until last night

i don't know what's with me why i went directly to my station
and started this blog
and after 8 hours of trying to figure out what to write
here i am typing madly
changed the template more than thrice
changed the fonts, colors
tried to write but after reading the entry, deleting it

i've monitored calls from other teams
'coz i don't feel like giving a perfect score
worked on a call for over 10 minutes
playing it over and over again and noticing even the smallest error
OC? i don't know

this is the first thing that this happened to me
i know i'm not in the mood to talk to anybody
answer texts messages so i kept my cellphone off
not even in the mood to have my dose of nicotine!

i know i'm working like a perfectionist bitch today
no excuses for that
i just hope know the reason why i'm like this

can somebody tell me?