few minutes before everyone ends their shift

i've had a stick of winston lights a few minutes earlier
it didn't uplift my mood
still don't feel like talking to anyone
divine is asking if i'm up to RedBox later
can't say yes but don't wanna say no yet
i don't know
starbucks?
i don't think so
basketball game?
i don't know
i just hope i know why i'm like this
hope this is just a case of kabaliwan
don't know what to do 'coz this is the very first time i've felt this way
a bit gloomy, a bit sensitive
not happy at all

i'm not used to seeing my face in the mirror without a smile
wearing make up and shiny gloss didn't help at all

aftershock?
from what?

adjustment?

separation anxiety?