i used to love wednesdays

wednesday = restday
tambay after shift
starbucks, glorietta or eastwood
go home before 4pm
sleep a little
gimik starts again around 9pm
ends before lunch the next day
sleep then go to work again

today is not my usual wednesday
i'm here at work
had to be here an hour earlier than usual
to do list longer than yesterday's list
empty cups of water, coffee, iced tea on my desk
messy hair, pale lips, eyebags
jeans, shirt and chucks

God knows how tired I am!
and I my to do list still shows more than half of unaccomplished tasked
just have to get used to this new role

i'm so sleepy
my system is as stubborn as i am
sleepy when i'm not supposed to sleep
and not sleepy when i badly needed to
haven't gotten decent sleep since friday

i know i'm not ok
coz i feel dizzy and weak
took anti-histamine (even if i don't have allergy ;p) coz they said that it's supposed to make me sleep in a snap
well, i slept
but it was a restless sleep
i'm tired
but i know i have to be strong and healthy

i just noticed that while i'm typing this entry
i've been listening to the same call recording over and over again
i need my nicotine dose
but i know that i'll pass out if i smoke another stick
so how can i concentrate?

i need to decide on a very critical issue
argh!
i hate to give DAs coz it's a waste of time to do the documentations
don't wanna see the look on the person's face once the DA was served
don't wanna see them lose motivation and their performance go down to drain

**sigh**